THE PLAN ~ COLLEGE EDITION {03.05.2015}

There is only one reason that I am posting this...for my future self to look back at and either a) laugh because I made my plans a reality or b) to pout to myself and whine because I failed to accomplish my plans. Although any time option "b" goes into affect, it's typically because a better option has come to the surface and we took it and ran. However, that does not mean in any shape or form that I want, or will even allow, option "b" to take place, so let's go ahead and move right along to the topic and ignore option "b" was even there....

Currently, I have plans in motion to finish enrolling in a few classes at my current community college where I had previously taken classes. Right now I have about 8-10 classes left that I can take at the com. college, the remainder must be taken at the university. Below is my timeline version of my plan...

Mini-Mester (05.2015-06.2015) ~ Math 1314
Summer Semester 1 (07.2015-08.2015) ~ English 1302
Summer Semester 2 (07.2015-08.2015) ~ History 1302
Fall 2015-2016 ~ Up to three 3- or 4-credit hour transferrable classes
Spring 2016-2017 ~ Up to three 3- or 4-credit hour transferrable classes
Mini-Mester (May 2017) ~ One 3-credit hour transferrable classes

• transferrable classes must be chosen from University degree plan

Fall 2016~ Transfer to University!!!

I would like to major in Education. Basically, I would like to get the Bachelors of Science for Math Teaching grades 4-8.

Currently, I have two colleges that I would like to apply to...

***drumroll please***

First up on my list...TAMU: Texas A&M University ~ Go Aggies!
Although it pains me, born in NOLA and raised a Tigers fan, I feel like this is really the best option for me for a number of reasons, so that is why TAMU is the school of my choice, number 1.

Second...UH: University of Houston ~ Go Coogs!
So originally, this was my go-to school, but after realizing that the better option would be for me to attend TAMU, I decided to keep this one on my list as a "backup." (After all, a girl's always got to have a back up plan)

So there you have it! That is my plan and I'm sticking to it. I am sooo ready to go back to school. Especially seeing my husband in his school for his job, it makes me realize that I need to better myself and do what I love...TEACHING! It's going to be a long couple of years, but in the end it will all be worth it. And every time I get discouraged, I will remind myself about the 80 year old woman here in Houston that went back to school and got her degree! If sweet granny can do it, so can I!!!!

LET'S GO AGGIES! ***fingers crossed*** I've only got until January 2016 to get where I need to be to apply for my Fall 2016 transfer to TAMU.

Stay fit, preppy, smart, and blessed!

DECISIONS AND GOD {02.28.2015}

Majority of the time, I am happy. Occasionally, it hits me. I'm sure this is how most women who have struggled for years feel. The fact that we have now had to suffer through two miscarriages, only 16 months apart, still irks me. There are days I just want to sit and question everything that God does. Then there are the other days where all I want to do is follow the path He has given me. I know God wants us to have children, it's obvious from the fact that He has gotten us pregnant twice! But maybe, we are just rushing things. Maybe He knows that in our hearts, there are other things that intrigue us.

For example, before this cycle, I told E that if we did not get pregnant, I wanted to go back to school and I wanted us to travel more. The thought of going back to school weighed heavily on my heart as it is something that I have been very seriously thinking about. I knew that if I wanted to give my child the things he or she needs, I would need to start making choices now! Start planning now and get my degree.

E mentioned before the miscarriage this time, that he believed God created miscarriage to provide insight and opportunities. Does that mean we wanted a miscarriage to happen? NO! Does that mean we planned on having two miscarriages? NO! But what E meant is that every time we had a miscarriage (door closing), something better that we had been dreaming of happened (door opened).

Back in 2013, when we suffered our first miscarriage, we were devastated, just as any couple would be. We wanted that baby so badly but we had always talked about traveling, since we can't even being to tell you how many countless amounts of people told us "no, wait to have children, go see the world. go do things as husband and wife first." I will be the first to admit that E and I had no desire to listen to anything they said. But as 2014 rolled in and doors started opening, we were so fascinated that we decided to step into those doors and make way for God to run our lives. To our surprise, that trust led us to Cozumel and Progresso Mexico on a 5 day cruise (travel), a 5 day trip to Las Vegas, Nevada (doing things as husband and wife like gambling), and we even set out on a trip to visit my family in Florida for Thanksgiving. So needless to say, things in 2014 were good but don't think that having children didn't weigh on our minds then. The difference was that we were enjoying ourselves and we believed wholeheartedly that God knew we needed this time together.

This year, God is providing us again with the opportunity to follow our hearts and do things we know to be best before we have children.

With that being said, I have decided to go back to school. To pursue my education and earn my degree in Teaching. I have always wanted to be a teacher and now I can follow my heart. I start classes May of 2015 and I am eagerly looking forward to transferring to the University I was supposed to attend in 2010 (more on that later). We also already plans in motion to travel again this year. Right now we are looking at New York City, Universal Orlando/Disney World, and even another cruise. For now, I am patiently waiting for classes to being and feel very enthusiastic about earning my degree. Even more exciting is the fact that my brand new laptop for school is only days away from arriving!

This post is to inspire those who are struggling with infertility. It may be so easy to give up on God and loose faith in Him while you are struggling but look deeper. He more than likely already has greater plans for you. He knows what is best in your life and will give you just what you need when you need it. It may be hard to stomach the idea of "moving on" from your TTC journey (trust me it was hard for us to imagine after 3 years just stopping and pursuing other things in life) but maybe, just maybe if you let go and let God, you will find more doors have opened and the doors will lead you to the things you deeply desire. Although, I will continue to pray for each of my TTC sisters, I pray that you find happiness in everyday things, that God blesses you with an angel of your own, and that you let Him in and let Him unfold the life-map He had planned before you were born.

God Bless and Well Wishes